Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.
kinda feel like this now. Haihs!
A Spoonful Of Sugar: WHOLEMEAL BREAD →
I’ve only just started baking bread. My first one, a granary loaf, wasn’t entirely successful. So I thought I’d go for a simple wholemeal this time. I found a very easy Delia recipe and tried it out and I was very pleasantly surprised by the result!
Ingredients
570g/1 lb 4 oz 100%…
A CHAT WITH JESUS CHRIST.
- Jesus: Hello. Did you call me?
- Man: Called you? No. Who is this?
- Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
- Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
- Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
- Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.
- Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
- Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
- Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
- Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
- Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
- Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?
- Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.
- Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
- Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
- Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
- Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
- Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
- Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
- Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?
- Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
- Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?
- Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
- Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading.
- Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
- Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
- Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
- Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
- Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
- Man: What surprises you about people?
- Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “why me? When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
- Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.
- Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
- Man: How can I get the best out of life?
- Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
- Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
- Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
- Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration.
- Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
- Man: Thank you so much.
- Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend.
- For you Juds. <3
Don’t hate
Please don’t hate him for what he did to and how he hurt me. It wasnt entirely his fault. Cuz yeah, I did break up with him first and he let me go. And no, I wasnt there when he needed me most and yeah, I didnt even give him a chance to explain himself. I just got angry and he found comfort somewhere else.
Sure, I still think that he was making decisions to be with her based on an angry heart but that aint my problem and he aint listening to me. If he says he loves her, then let it be. If it is love, then let them be. Though I do believe that Love waits. Love is patient. It isn’t rushed. It takes time. So no, I don’t believe what he’s doing is really love. He knows I’m right but he says that there is a very strong connection between him and her. He says strong connection, I say desperation.
I had to make my peace. We’re both going to the same church and we both wanna go back to serving the ministry. Awkwardness with the break up is not going to come between the work we have for God and the team we work with. So we had to settle things and decided that yeah, our past relationship isn’t going to get in between the work we have for God. Because we both decided that, that’s the right thing to do. And that’s what is more important. I’ve been living by the verse that says to Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness. And I encouraged Him to do the same. I just want to walk with God again.
So don’t hate him for what he did to me. I forgave him and so should you. I’m going to have to put all my feelings aside and focus on what’s important. I do believe that God has a better plan for me. And I do believe that one day, I will be happy and with a guy who adores me. If it is meant to be, it will be. But for now, we’re just friends. And I do not wish to call him my EX-boyfriend. I do think that’s just rude. He’s just a guy I used to love but now he’s just a friend.
I know that it will hurt. I know that I will miss him. I know I will cry. But, that’s okay. I know I’ll get over it. He handled it his way and I’ll handle it my way. He’s a good guy but he couldn’t hold on. That was it. If it is meant to be, it’ll be. I trust God and that is what is important.
Don’t hate. He’s a good guy who makes mistakes. We’re all only human.
i wish
no it isnt fair.. it isnt fair that youre happy with her now.. yes, i did ask for a break but that was for a very good reason.. yes, i know i said some things i shouldnt have said.. but i apologized.. you didnt accept that apology cuz you knew what you did was wrong and you told me that i shouldnt be apologizing.. then i forgave you.. but you didnt accept that either..
what hurts the most? you didnt give me a chance to calm down and think straight.. before i could apologize, youve already found her.. you didnt give me a chance to think straight.. you were already in a relationship with her when i apologized.. it meant nothing.. so it was unacceptable.. it was already too late
i wish you hadnt given her your number that day.. i wish you hadnt left for camp.. the night before you left for camp i felt like i was already losing you.. when we had dinner that night i didnt know it was gonna be our last.. i knew i would miss you so bad when you left for camp..
now i know why.. i didnt know it would be the last time i would see you.. i didnt know my whole life was gonna change after that.. now i do.. i had a bad feeling about that camp.. you werent replying me and you couldnt call me like you promised.. didnt know i was supposed to start letting you go then.. i couldnt handle being lonely.. and i felt like i couldnt trust you
i wish i hadnt read that conversation.. i wish i had trusted you.. sometimes i iwish i didnt have to know the truth.. i wish you would lie..
i wish you hadnt let me go.. but you didnt let me go cuz you didnt want to hurt me.. you let me go cuz you already replaced me.. you said you didnt want to hurt me anymore.. i wish you hadnt hurt me by replacing me..
i wish you had taken the time to think about me.. and what our relationship meant.. i wanted to get over you.. but you were already over me.. you didnt give me a chance to let my wounds heal.. you didnt give yourself a chance to let your wounds heal.. you just replaced me.. and you filled that empty hole with her..
i wish it had been another girl with a different situation.. cuz i know youre not ready.. youre not ready for a complicated relationship like that.. and you may know her situation but i dont think you understand her situation..
i wish i can forget you like you have forgotten me.. i wish i didnt have these feelings still.. i wish to replace you with someone else as you have replaced me.. i wish God sent me comfort like yours..
i wish God could send me someone like He sent you someone
i wish i can find happiness and peace within myself..
i wish i can sleep and enjoy food
i wish i can stop being tired
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